I gave it six months and I still look at his face and think, you’re not a Bryce, you’re a Decker (or something) but you’re not a Bryce. I wrote about this before he was born, about the fact that I woke up one day in a state of panic over the name we’d chosen. I just didn’t want to call him Bryce. The problem was, I got a lot of push-back from Mike and our families. Everyone else loved the name Bryce and had all gotten so attached to it over the previous couple of months. I had to wonder what my deal was, why couldn’t I just love it? I don’t have an answer. I just know that I wasn’t feeling it and shouldn’t my opinion count just a smidge more than anyone else’s? Carrying him inside my body for 9 months and pushing him out should give me at least 60% stake in the naming rights. In the end, I couldn’t come up with anything better that Mike and I could agree on- so in the week or two before he was born, I announced that we would be turning back to Bryce.
I was nervous to tell our families. I had been given enough grief about it before
he was even born! What were the
reactions going to be now, after it’d been six month outside the womb! I know
you all might think I’m weird. However, I’m the mom. You got to name your kids, so let me name
mine. And rename them. And rename them. *grin*
Okay, I think Mike might have a limited amount of name-change-coupons made up
for me to use. I’ve had a few friends
that have exclaimed how much they love the switch to Decker and I’m the kind of
girl who really needs a few big noisy supporters. While we were on vacation we stayed at the
Still’s house the first couple of nights and I told Monte that I really wanted
to make the switch to Decker. He said,
Okay. Let’s do it. We’ll call him Decker starting now. I thought, yeah! Why am I so worried about
what other people will say or think? I’m thankful for Monte’s bold
encouragement.
Reed isn’t having any problem with it. He’s heard me calling
his little brother “Bryce Decker” and “lil Decker” over the past few months, so
it’s no surprise to him when we refer to him that way all the time now. He goes back and forth between the names, but
I’m sure he’ll easily learn that his brother is going by Decker.
How funny. I feel that way about Rylen too. That's why I always call him Ry. LOL. Or I'll say Rylen Jackson :) You aren't weird. I think most people just don't tell everyone when they secretly are questioning the name they picked for their children :) There's probably more people out there than you would think!
ReplyDeleteYou're probably right. It's such a big deal! Of course other people probably have doubts too, especially thinking about how many times I wished I could have changed my name when I was growing up. Naming a person is a big responsibility.
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