Reed will be 8 weeks old on Saturday and the reason it's significant is that it means I return to work on Monday. Monday! Two days ago I dropped Reed off for a trial day at child care. He only spent a couple hours there but I wanted him to meet his teachers and get to know them a little before he was suddenly abandoned there for 6 hours on Monday.
I was actually expecting it to affect me more than it did. After all, I haven't been away from him at all unless you count last Sunday when I went for a bike ride and left him here with Mike. I rode for 11 miles so I guess I got about 5.5 miles away from him. And yes, I was thinking the whole time that this was the first time I'd been away from him. So, back to Wednesday- I had a lot of things I wanted to do, so I dropped him off and rushed home, pumped/worked on his halloween costume, got only a 30 minute bike ride in (I wanted an hour) and suddenly it was time to go get him already! I have to say, I stopped to get gas on my way and I also ran into the dollar store real quick before I picked him up. I forgot that simple errands can actually be SIMPLE!
Reed has picked up the habit of crying uncontrollably in his car seat. It really breaks my heart because he gets sooo mad! There are real tears and everything- he cries so hard it sounds like you're sawing his leg off or something awful.
Anyway, I was so busy and felt so rushed because there was so much I wanted to do while I was free that I didn't even have time to think about the fact that I just abandoned him with strangers. Of course when I picked him up I expected him to break out in a huge smile and show some excitement and relief that I'd come back. That, of course, was just unrealistic. It looked like he didn't even notice. They said he was an angel and both of his teachers had already fallen head over heels. He has a way of doing that- grabbing your heart and sticking it in his tiny pocket.
Tonight Mike and I are going out to a United Way party and Reed is staying home with our friend Susanne. I sure hope he takes it easy on her. He can either be very very good or a teensy weensy bad. After the experience with leaving him at child care on Wednesday I’m very confident that he’ll be fine tonight.
I’ve looked through all my dresses and have decided on my bebe dress again. Its loose fitting but very glamorous, so it will be great for the “casino night” theme. Until I lose the last of this pesky 12-15 lbs I’m probably going to stay out of my more fitting clothing, even if they are stretchy.
Reed has been smiling so much more this week. He smiles easily, too. You don’t really have to do a whole lot to coax one out. I hope that stays with him throughout life. If he’s anything like his parents he will always find things to smile at.
Yesterday Amanda and her daughter Piper came over to play with us. Piper is 4 & ½ months old now and Reed is almost two so it’s fun to look at them together and see the differences. Piper is much better at tummy time and Reed still can’t really control his hand movements. He’s pretty chill though. We went for a walk around the lake in our neighborhood and I put Reed’s sunglasses on him, which he’s fine with. I think he likes them but mostly they just crack me up, especially since he has this dead serious face all the time. “I know I’m cool.”
I will have to find time to blog after my first day back to work on Monday. I’m sure it will be a big mixed bag of emotions. I will also have to convince Mike to blog after Wednesday, which is going to be his first day home with Reedster! That’s right, Reed’s in child care on Mondays and Fridays but he’s home with daddy on Wednesdays while I work! I’m interested to see how that goes. Mike is very capable of taking care of his own son, that’s not what I’m worried about. In fact, I’m not worried at all. I’m just excited to hear about Mike’s day when I get home. It will be such a wonderful opportunity for them to really bond more and for Mike to experience the beautiful joy of really being there for Reedster.
I have to go do some last minute crunches now in order to slip a little more easily in my dress tonight.
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